A narcoleptic yokel on software and culture.
The following was sent as part of a personal TinyLetter I've just begun in the hopes of rejuvenating my ability to tell stories.
and in those open spaces, you would fly your flag of adoration, frustration, miscommunication, and mutilation
slicing proud, there - lashed to the stern of the vessel Hateful;
her keel lain by callouses of home - hands & feet stiff (long ago, they hauled barley, by bushel down a gravel road)
but an instant of that rarified quiet stays the haze's obfuscation, faltered: our sisters lie lynched on dire alters
our homesteads, crypts; shrines to delirium the chords of our songs left unresolved in imposters' inrequiem
plastic for stone; fiberglass for coal stale rot for flesh, cut with nothing to our bones
mirages in the mirror, darkly: devil's imps roost on red Remingtons, limp
plugged, our ears in mute
terror's gluttony, stripped down furrows of falsity's fatherly fugue truth: our souls seethe in the dark we are drowning in our own deceptions
in excess, we are barren we parade nothing but the lies which proceed the whole of Earthly pain
breathless, we are foolish monstrosities - the incongruent Lords of amplified insanity
resolute, we are the hearthen hole into which all eventually fall, famished for youth
manic, we are the monopolized manufacturers of mantra; an ambient, discordant dirge
patriotic, we produce only pervading paternal plague
nostalgic, we are the fundamental erosion of human wellness
abrasive, we are needlessly suffering - the listless harlequin of a nation
~the world is growing weary of our emergency~ and the humongous expenditure of its petty insincerities
see what we have asked of this land: juicing zea jabbing through chapped flats
see what we have asked of her soldiers: contentment, submerged alone in nuggets of petrified human safetyglass
shower of obliterated abstracts; white like love, but no shards large enough to make out a face
we have watched ourselves closely, most of our lives for the first time.
records kept, exponentially clarified.
I will be immortal.
doubling, said Moore, but not what, or what for.
give me any date, and I'll tell you what I said, then, but not always who I was.
notably – just about anything; begun on my last priority
notably – not whom or how I've loved.
I've said and say words; too many, maybe
not a one need leave me, ever
blessed, an accumulate film of noise. there to wash, and me knows how.
but if I do, then who is left? less the weight